I think this is funny, I have a journal here, that absolutely no one knows about, It isnt Myspace, Where everyone and their mother knows about that site, NONE of my friends nor gf know about this site. I feel safe. Like no interruptions can be made, because no one can protest my thoughts. I am my own worst critic anyway, so anyhow,....I have this gf, He name is Katie. Shes 20. About 5'4 More to love, But so am i , Not HUGE, but shes good size, Shes the size that fits me. Shes a sweetheart, You naturally cant help but love her. Even if you dont know her. Shes just like a sunflower, She brightens everything. Shes a jokester, VERY funny, and fun to be around. She amazes me at how sweet one person can really be. See the fucked up thing about this whole thing is, Shes MY gf, And i treat her like shit. God knows i love the girl. My demons are biting me in the ass. I wonder if there is ever a moment i stop, and think about HER. I found this journal she has, She wrote this entry about me earlier on in this month, I feel so bad. And its not that she wrote it, and intended on it hurting me, I just feel so wrong.....On the upside We got a place, Cool place, Nice people. We are renting a portion of a house from this guy, and its comfortable, A lot of the times, these types of situations can be uncomfortable for me, But im doing okay. I cant complain about me, Im doing good. Nothing is really going wrong in my life, Other than my bestfriend wont talk to me, And thats starting to wear on me =/ Today is 4:20 and im a stoner, And so im celebrating.


Thats all i really have to say, Im just a fucked up person.